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Another boring Saturday stuck at home, plans to see Tashyra in action is spoilt thanks to the heavy rain. I guess they wont be performing alrdy since its not sheltered? Protect your instruments! -.- Dont worry Tash, we'll meet up somehow/somewhen okay (: Then, i (think) im back to playing audition. At least to cure tday's boredom. Stupid.
50 RANDOM ISSUES!1) Kay Kay is dammitly pretty! (Whooops xiaxue :/)
2) "Dear God" by Avenged Sevenfold is nice (:
3) I wna change phone, mine is spoilt.
4) My cough just wont get well.
5) I've been like a mental patient tday.
6) My hair is tied superrrrrrly high now.
7) Im cutting hair tmr.
8) I wna meet up with Sarah.
9) I wna go ice-skating real bad now.
10) I thought that even I have a dslr, i'll have no use for it -.-
11) "Killer" on msn is super irritating.
12) Webcam is not nice.
13) Jonas Brother's song/music videos is all about girls.
14) Miley is prettier than Hannah -.-
15) I hate
you.
16) I dont feel like texting (tday).
17) My amath TYS is not done.
18) I've got tons of tough homework to do.
19) Idk how to study for mid-year.
20) I wna Brisbane themeparks again.
21) Im acting dumb in front of "Killer" hoping he'll find me irritating and not talk to me.
22) I downloaded Audition but didnt play it at all -.-
23) Im not looking forward for tmr cos everyday passes and exams are approaching.
24) But im looking forward to my birthday.
25) I want loads of hugs for my birthday.
26) I wanna be inside your heaven ~ -Carrie Underwood.
27) I dont think i'll ever find my pencil back.
28) My umbrella too.
29) I wna keep long hair and perm hair (kidding!)
30) I have no mood to camwhore now.
31) I just checked my photos, i dont have any self-shots.
32) What am I gna do during Physics exam? ):
33) I think i'll cry throughout.
34) I think after every paper i'll cry real bad.
35) Im really starting to give up on this whole 3e1 shite.
36) I shall only survive on water now.
37) ]:
38) Purple eyes.
39) I dont believe in reality/fate/luck now.
40) I cant help it bu cry everytime I think of Final destination.
41) I. Am. So. Stress.
42) Mid years in 13 days, not even 2 weeks.
43) What if im the last in class?
44) Why is Chinyeh/Xuanning so smart?
45) Why cant I speak proper chinese?
46) Oral on tuesday with MsTay, die bodoh!
47) Im dying, literally. (Doctor save me please)
48) I wna get 10 and below for Olevels. (I plan super far yes i knw)
49) What is Love?
50) I dont believe in Love, i think.
I feel so sad tday for reasons and no reason. I think that i'll do badly for midyear. I cant help it but feel so stress over studies. I knw im not alone, at least 3e1 feels the same. But am I over-panicking? Am I the only one that feels this much stress level? I think im paranoid yet i think what im thinking is true. I think that im losing hope in everything. Where's my bestf? Who's my bestf? I think of so many fcukup stuffs. I feel so vulgar. Im so pissed for no reason? I spent hours thinking about killing myself. I planned to jump in front of a train or from a cliff. These seemed to me the most certain ways of dying. And although the prospect of killing myself was daunting, i wasn't afraid of death itself as much as I feared what lay ahead for me in life ): Read and say: Wtf(?!) Or rather, dont bother reading.
